WHAT DO YOU THINK ABOUT YOUR BODY?

Photographed by: Will Brooks @thebrojax

Photographed by: Will Brooks @thebrojax

I hated my legs for a long time. I thought they looked like tree trunks and don't even get me started about my inner thighs rubbing together when I walked. When I would wear shorts, they would bunch up as I walked, showing off more of the legs that I was disgusted to look at. 

For most of my adult life I didn't wear shorts or leggings at all. In one of the first kardio dance classes I taught I wore tight fitting pants.... I yelled "SHAKE IT" and some guy laughed with the woman next to him, and said "Oh it is!" From then on it was baggy pants only while dancing.

Even when I was at my lowest weight, my legs never seemed to change. I told myself it wouldn't matter if I were 100 pounds, my legs would always be this way. It is what it is.

About a year ago I read a life changing book, As A Man Thinketh. The gist is that thoughts become action. Our entire reality is a product of all of the thoughts we've had over an entire life. So, after an (adult) lifetime of self deprecating thoughts about my legs, and arms (too muscular, not feminine), I realized something... Thinking these thoughts, and believing these things to be true about myself was leading to behaviors that only perpetuated that reality. So, I ripped off the baggy pants. I stopped asking lulu for all drop crotch, and hit up the legging wall. 

In the meantime, crop tops also came back in style. Hallelujah! My stomach is one part of my body that's been easy for me to love. I say that just to keep it honest and say it wasn't all negative... But the negative has a way of outweighing, right?

It was a bit of an undertaking, but here was my

PROCESS FOR LOVING & THUS SHIFTING MY BODY:

1. FOCUS ON THE GIFT/FUNCTION OF EACH BODY PART: I began focusing on my legs for the gift they are. They are strong and muscular. That allows me to do the things I love: dance harder, jump higher, and take me on all sorts of adventures! 

2. EAT FOODS THAT WILL SEND MY BODY LOVE: I pay closer attention to the way foods make me feel. Working out for a living, how I feel, and the way foods affect my energy, or digestive system, is MAGNIFIED! 

   *FIRST when I get hungry I DRINK WATER to make sure I'm not actually dehydrated.
   *TRIAL AND ERROR: I avoid the foods that are uncomfortable to digest. (ex. When I became vegetarian I ate a lot of hummus and cheese at lunch, and by evening classes I STILL felt like there was a brick in my belly. So, I limit beans, and switched to goat cheese.. I did slim down some, (bonus).. but MOST importantly, I know that fruits, veggies, eggs and nuts make me feel GREAT, and I really didn't miss meat or lack energy). 
   *DON'T OVEREAT OUT OF PROCRASTINATION: I am mindful. I notice when I am satisfied & I then tell myself I love my body more than the food. I recognize that I am trying to put off a task, and tell myself the quicker I start it, the quicker it will be finished.

 

**HERE'S THE MOST IMPORTANT KEY TO BODY CHANGE
3. IF I WANT TO CHANGE, I HAVE TO BE WILLING TO TRY SOMETHING DIFFERENT: I began incorporating REGULAR Primal workouts into my routine. I swear to you, the thing I was most afraid of, was ultimately the answer to what I thought was IMPOSSIBLE. My legs actually did change shape! I noticed the "cuts" from my quads on the side, less inner thigh touch, and I no longer view them as tree trunks. 

I am naturally muscular, so I had avoided strength training as to not "bulk up." However, I realized that as long as I'm not overeating (even the healthy stuff), the strength training (Primal), sculpts a gorgeous, lean shape. 

I am no longer ashamed of my arms. They are feminine... and I'm ā STRONG ASS FEMALE. 

HIT ME UP. WHAT THOUGHTS DO YOU HAVE THAT ARE PERPETUATING THE PROBLEM? I am happy to help you shift your mindset & your body. 

Keep the Passion, 
Katie

NEVER SAY ANYTHING ABOUT YOURSELF YOU DO NOT WISH TO COME TRUE. 

NEVER SAY ANYTHING ABOUT YOURSELF YOU DO NOT WISH TO COME TRUE. 

People are anxious to improve their circumstances, but are unwilling to improve themselves, they therefore remain bound. - James Allen

People are anxious to improve their circumstances, but are unwilling to improve themselves, they therefore remain bound. - James Allen

healers

Photo by the incredible: Duncan Littlefield

Photo by the incredible: Duncan Littlefield

SOME PEOPLE NEED A BOTTLE, TO CAST THEIR PAIN AWAY.

SOME PEOPLE RIDE IN FULL THROTTLE, TO ESCAPE FROM ALL THEIR SHAME.

SOME PEOPLE NEED A DOCTOR, TO GET THEIR DAILY HIT. 

BUT HONEY, I JUST NEED A HEALER, AND IT SEEMS THAT'S WHERE YOU'LL FIT. 

MY PURPOSE, MY HIGH, THE BRIGHTEST I SHINE, IS IN LOVE.

-JANEY BROWN

Before kardio dance on Saturday, I almost got physically sick, out of anxiety. It was one of only 3 classes that I've ever worried about my ability to perform, due to my state of emotional sadness. The first time time being when a tribe member passed, and another when a member's son was tragically paralyzed. This time, it was because all at once, I found out that 3 beings (one is my dog), were suddenly on the brink of death. I felt a sinking, deep, dark weight in my entire body.

As I got ready to teach, the member, who's son was paralyzed, shared a photo of him now, STANDING, with a girl. ;) He looked incredibly well and happy. Dawn (mom), was beaming from ear to ear. 

It reminded me that there is always LIGHT, even in the suffering. 

As the music and movement began, I immediately felt overwhelming freedom! The words of each of the songs brought a specific release of emotions. I knew, it was the only thing in the world that could bring me peace in the moment. The music, the people, movement, energy... It completely shifted my sadness.

I felt restored for half an hour on my way down to an event in the city. Then, I got news from Mike that things could be much more imminent with our pup. As I felt like I could have come crashing down, the friends I was with were my rock. In that moment I had a choice to panic and leave, or lean in on my chosen family, and pour into others who were suffering. (I was co-leading a fitness event to support victims in Houston). 

I chose the light. Lean into each other in hope and healing. Just as my friend Tia said yesterday, the #1 thing you have to have is hope, otherwise you'll never find your way out.

That evening we had an event at the studio. At the event, a tribe member said, "Do you just look around this space, every day, with complete pride and joy in all that you've accomplished? ... I really hope you do." 

The truth is that most days, I don't. The truth is, I carry with me a great amount of anxiety, fear, shame, doubt. But, the way in which I heal myself, is through shedding light on others. The way in which others heal me, is in their ability to connect in spirituality. It comes in the form of words, dance or simply their presence. 

Recently I've had several conversations with spiritual people about being intune and aware of connections, and signs from the Spirit. And, in many conversations they have expressed how they see me as a LIGHT, full of hope and optimism.

WE HAVE TO HEAL FROM WITHIN AND FROM WITHOUT. We have to see every day as a chance to ReStart. And, since we are all suffering, each day (from hurricanes and 9/11 attacks to simple conflict with those that we love). It can overwhelm us with darkness... or we can shift to be a light to others, to heal them, and in return, ReStore ourselves. 

I don't know what you're going through at the moment. I don't know the burdens that you carry with you. But, I am more than happy to offer you light: prayers, support, an ear to listen... Just message me.

Love Wins,
Katie